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Name: Kendra
Birthday: 1/11/1988
Gender: Female
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i was told yesterday that i judge a lot...but really i don't. i guess i judge people's actions as right or wrong but then i don't look at the person any differently. if they do something stupid, i don't think of them as a bad person, i just think that they did something wrong...everyone does stupid things.
but i'm really beginning to understand freedom in Christ. yes, we should try to live well. i would never say that you should do just whatever the crap you want and still live for Jesus, but it's really about your heart. i've messed up a lot in my life. there was even a point where i just lived constantly in sin and i decided i didn't care anymore. i loved God with all my heart, there was just that one area in my life that really blocked my relationship.
i see now what it means where in the Bible it says that when you sin your prayers will be hindered. i didn't realize until i was out of the sin that really my relationship was being hindered. i didn't experience the fullness of God's presence in my life until i let go of the sin. so it's not like if you sin and you're a christian, you're just done...ha ha too bad. it's just that the connection between you and God won't be as complete as when you're trying to walk in harmony with him. everyone messes up, it's just a choice if you want to try and do what's right.
in all honesty, if you're a Christian, i judge your actions more carefully than i would a non-christian. i expect more out of those who profess to love Jesus than i do someone that doesn't even believe. i would rather be around a proclaimed atheist who does who-knows-what than be with someone who says one thing and does another. i know i've done that before, but i repent and move on. and will probably do it again...but that's where love and grace come in.
i super hope that made sense. maybe it didn't...but there you go.
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| i wonder if anyone i know actually reads this anymore...
i went to christian challenge the last couple weeks and one week was about God being powerful. She went through all these things that Jesus did, healing people, raising people from the dead, feeding 5,000 plus people from crackers...and then finished it by saying that the most powerful thing that he does is heal people's hearts. like changing people's lives is what he does best. all of those other things are just to point everyone in the right direction. then she showed this video that really touched me. it showed these pictures of a really beautiful little girl, smiling and having fun with her brother. it then cut to pictures of her in college, partying and doing all sorts of shallow things that really did nothing. then it showed a video of her getting baptized and then amazing things that happened to her after that. i liked it a lot.
at the end she raised a question...so if God is all-powerful, is he good? kinda like a superhero movie or something, will he use his powers for good or for awesome? just kidding, but really. yes, we can see that God is powerful, but is he good? is there even reason to trust him?
The next week (meaning yesterday), it opened with people reading from Psalms, mostly David's. He was just crying out to God for His grace and felt like it wasn't there. David did. A man after God's own heart sometimes didn't feel like he could trust God. He questioned him. But in the end God always came through. Jesus said that if a boy goes up to his father and asks for a piece of bread, the father isn't going to be like, "ha ha, no, but i can throw this rock at your face!" No, of course the father would give the child something to eat. So if we can believe that a sinful human would look out for the best in their children (at least the normal parents), why would we think any less of God? Why do we not trust that he has the best set out for us?
because we're dumb. i do it all the time and i have to look back and find all the things that He has done for me.
the end.
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2006:YEAR IN REVIEW
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
went sledding with no snow
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next
year?
I’m pretty sure I didn’t make any, and I’m not going to make any this year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My aunt
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Granny
5. What countries did you visit?
America
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
a car
7. What date(s) from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
October 14 and 22…ummm because
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
being incredibly awesome
9. What was your biggest failure?
being dumb with money and time
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
well I feel like I was sick a lot
11. What was the best thing you bought?
probably…I don’t remember.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
myriah’s
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
ohhh no comment.
14. Where did most of your money go?
the freaking bank
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
probably a lot of things. I’m excitable
16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
beauty from pain by superchick
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder?
I think I’m fine…always getting better
ii. Thinner or fatter?
probably fatter. Dang.
iii. Richer or poorer?
richer! Not much, but I have money!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
writing
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
spending money
20. Did you fall in love in 2006?
nope
23. How many one-night stands?
too many to count! Wow that’s a lie.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
most likely king of the hill
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I think I don’t hate them…I’d like to think I don’t
26. What was the best book you read?
I don’t know.
The last one I read was Skin and it was pretty good.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
pretty much a million different bands that I had no idea about
28. What did you want and get?
a job?
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
nacho libre
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
hung out, went to Topeka and ate tasty treats, played kick ball…and I turned
37.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a trip to europe
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
I guess okay…I pretty much make my own shirts now, so I’m wicked awesome
34. What kept you sane?
Jesus
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
fancy? Like have a crush on? Well then, no one. But just like a lot, then ted dekker.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
aw politics annoy me. Is that bad?
37. Who did you miss most?
MYRIAH
38. Who was the best new person you met?
I started hanging out with a lot of new people this year, and they’re all
wicked sweet
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
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| this past week has been crazy! i know it sounds kinda dumb, but i've had like the best times ever and then like the worst ever. i watched a very dear friend fall apart, saw them heal again, saw another friend break down, and saw her together again. i had a friendship-ending conversation with someone and all it did was make me love him even more. i went on the most random roadtrip of my life to oklahoma and had many good times. MY BEST FRIEND IS ENGAGED ...to a great friend of mine. i knew it was going to happen soon for a while now but i wasn't allowed to actually tell anyone till it was official. and it is, so i am. anyway, this week has been so crazy. it's been one of the worst weeks i've ever had but also one of the best.
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my camera is dead. yes, i'm really upset about it. i thought about how ridiculous that was, being so upset about a camera, but for you musicians, it'd be like your guitar or piano being destroyed, or someone who loves to paint their arm being broken...it's not the end of the world, but it's something that i love gone--i'm going to get a new one...everyone tells me that the person who broke it should be the one to pay for it, but they don't have money and i would feel really weird with them paying for an entirely new camera. it was bound to break sometime.
so was this a memorial to my camera?
probably.
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